Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Being a Mom is Tough

One of my Facebook friends posted the link to an online bible study and I was so intrigued by the title that I just couldn't pass it up.  I mean, it's like someone read my mind.  Am I Messing Up My Kids?  Are you kidding me?  I probably ask myself this question on an hourly basis.

I read the first section the day my book came in the mail and I already LOVE it!  I am a compulsive reader, so it took some major self-control not to finish the whole thing.  I love how Lysa, the author, is so honest and relatable about her journey as a mother.  I am so excited to see how God uses this study to touch my life and the lives of my kids.

Speaking of my kids, here they are in all their cuteness. :)

This is the one. and. only. picture we got before Weston refused to cooperate.  Aren't toddlers great?

Weston will be 2 next week and loves his sister, his papa and nana, his daddy, playing outside, and anything with wheels...pretty much in that order.  Mommy is somewhere down the list between Lightning McQueen and peanut butter sandwiches.  This kid already gives us a run for our money. One minute he is strong-willed and defiant and the next he's crawling in my lap asking for "sugars."  I'm pretty sure he's going to be one of those kids that outsmarts his parents by age 3.  Lord, help us.  But he's also smart and hilarious and tender-hearted and the best big brother there ever was.  I could go on and on about how amazing this little boy is, but for the sake of whoever reads this, I'll stop there.

Anna Beth is almost 4 months old and loves her mommy more than anyone else on the planet...brother is a close second. She enjoys watching Wheel of Fortune and eating her fists.  She also happens to be the sweetest baby on God's green earth and has a smile that could melt Queen Elsa's ice castle.  Her mommy and daddy are already wrapped around her finger.

I am the most #imperfectmom but oh, my love for these babies is fierce.  My hope and prayer is that I can be the mother that these two precious lives deserve.  That the choices I make for them and the words I speak to them and the actions they observe from me will lead them to be kind, honest, generous, hard-working, and, most importantly, Godly adults...easier said than done.  Lord, I need Your guidance and mercy because I so desperately want to do this right for them.